Faith

We all, constantly, go through ups and downs and questions about Faith. Sometimes I feel so at One with the Golden Light I have no sense of my physical form, I feel I am pure light. Other times I feel like a hippopotamus for no apparent reason, heavy, weighed down, anchored to Earth. An Earthworm blindly tunnelling through the mud with no clear direction. The important thing for us all to know is that we never lose our Spiritual connection to Source because we ARE part of source, we are One with Spirit and it is One with us. It is always within us, part of us, our Being. It is only when we doubt, that we fear we might have lost our connection. We haven't. Once the doubts pass or we think of other things, we notice our connection again but it has always been there, strong and consistent.    

I've always been a bit confused over how much we need to 'set intentions' versus how much we trust in our inner guidance. The more that time goes by, the more I sense that when we totally clear our heads of thoughts, then we FEEL our direction. It comes up from the heart and then steers the mind and we jump into action. Something has been telling me during these last 4 years and beyond that when the time is right my heart will tell me what it wants me to do, give me clarity and direction. Nothing has felt right so I stayed on my path and waited, finding my peace, connecting with Nature and all forms of consciousness, meditating and feeling happy in my Being. It was hard. Sometimes the fear was paralysing. What if nothing ever comes? What if I am still in limbo in another 4 years? Now, suddenly, I feel so strongly I am meant to write that I just know that heaven and earth will work together to make it happen, because it is Divine Will. No ego, no mind games, it's about being alert to the Heart's wisdom and guidance and trusting in the same power that keeps the planets aligned and the Sun shining and moon rising and seems to oversee the seasons of Life. We are all part of this huge concerto, we are all finely tuned instruments and each of us is needed for the exact balance and harmony of sound. I think part of our journey is to find Our Gift and release it. 

 We will soon be more aware that we are all here to help each other to grow and evolve for the greater good of the Whole. I feel the resistances we have had within ourselves and with others, will start to dissolve as we see we are all working together, all parts of us, for our Highest Collective good and now we can focus on making Life the best it can be. The outside always reflects the inside. Now we are vibrating at a much higher level, we will see it reflected around us. It is such an exciting time.

There is always a good reason, when we feel we are dragging our heels about something or we feel a resistance, it is coming from an inner knowing, so I have learned to roll with it. This week I haven't feel like doing much at all, apart from being still and quiet and meditating and writing and listening to music. I know I need to allow whatever wants to bubble to the surface, to bubble, but it's also about knowing that I need to conserve energy at the moment. I know that tomorrow or the next day I will feel energised and ready to resume my schedule or do more. I am being urged not to fight it. This also applies to meditation. Buddha and Osho say that these practises are just tools, eventually we can throw away the books and methods and see that Life is a meditation. We don't need to retreat to a cave. Buddha realised after he returned to the Palace, following his 12 years of solitary meditation, that he could have achieved Enlightenment within the Palace walls but he didn't it know then. Meditation is about stilling the mind, it is about being Aware without letting thoughts cloud our experience. It is about noticing a beautiful butterfly or a flower or the colour of someone's shoes or where an umbrella is placed, to the left or right of a shoe at the doorway to a house. Life can be a meditation. We don't need to retreat from Life to find what we seek and enjoy our Faith. We are reaching a new time now where we can throw away the tools, trust our Inner Guidance System and find the answers and insight and Divine Pathways and Messages, ourselves.